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Need Advice! Meri engagement mere cousin se early age mai around intermediate mai ho gye the. I was happy then aik din i got a call from a Guy and us ne kha wo aur meri cousin shadi krna chahte hain is liye mai rishte ko khatam kr don. But after one day meri cousin ne rishta khudi khatam krwa diya sub family ko bula k ab hoa ye k, all family supported her and mai akela he khra tha sath bhai bus keh rha tha stay strong. Now this was a bad experience. Ab after this a year passed i was in NUST and i liked a girl there ab mera mind nikah k tha so i asked her and she agreed and i send purposal. But hoa ye after 3 months she was married to someone else. Muje ab sar dard rehne lag gya tha. It was a surprise. Now this incident passed. I am very good in studies and i moved to New Zealand for research, ab hoa ye k when i got there i heard and k cousin has broken her engagement and family want me to consider her. Ab is bara mess sunien after getting xxx from family i said Yes and after three months again she turn back and i was standing like an idiot. Now after a while i got in Nikah to very nice and beautiful women she care for me and all. But i fear getting emotionally connected or getting, as far taking care of her is concerned i do all but i fear emotional connection. My mind has a very bad image of a women. How to get emotionally connected? My mind says Wherever a women is present life is just a step away from a mess.